“Your future begins with your next thought.”
The Hero that I am is currently being tested in many ways – and in only one way. For it is only and always a matter of how I look at things.
On that Journey, I am presented with situations to help me find out who can be trusted and who can’t. Although both of them, friends and foes, will eventually help me prepare for the ordeals yet to come, I am battling and resisting a lot – considering the heavy pressure I’m feeling on my chest right now. Anger, frustration, sadness, loneliness, weariness, despondency, and more anger…
An anger that says: “Why aren’t you listening, people!?! Can’t you understand what I’m saying!?! Is it so demanding to ask you for respect and empathy!?! Can’t you just shut up and stop commenting on my life because you supposedly love me!?! Who loves who here, tell me?!!!!!” Yes… I was angry and still am, although writing this blog is like therapy for me. In this stage of the Journey, I see many of the topics we addressed in the past few weeks: love, mind, power, thoughts, giving, opinions, kindness, purpose, grit, and more love…
A love that says: “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. I can be what I will to be. It isn’t me, but my skills and powers that are being tested. Every obstacle I encounter helps me gain a deeper insight into my character, and ultimately helps me identify and clarify the ‘who, what, where, when, how, and why’.”
A why that says: “Why am I thinking the thoughts that I am thinking? Why am I still doing it by default rather than on purpose? Why can’t I get in the gap and dissolve in it? One with all for ever.”
Like “Music is the silence between the notes” (Claude Debussy), Meditation is focusing on the gap between the thoughts.
In The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle writes: “Try a little experiment. Close your eyes and say to yourself: ‘I wonder what my next thought is going to be.’ Then become very alert and wait for the next thought. Be like a cat watching a mouse hole. What thought is going to come out of the mouse hole. Try it now.”
That question hit me like a thunderbolt as I closed my eyes and watched the mouse hole in my mind waiting for my next thought. And for a moment (a while), time froze and I saw it. Not the mouse, but the gap. The gap between the question and thought, the space between the words, the silence between the notes. So I tried again, and I saw it again! And I tried again, and I saw it again!! And there I was, standing in the office, speechless and amazed, humbled and grateful, for I had just been ‘it’ (all) in a matter of seconds.
Eckart Tolle further writes: “As long as you are in a state of intense presence, you are free of thought. You are still, yet highly alert. The instant your conscious attention sinks below a certain level, thought rushes in. The mental noise returns; the stillness is lost. You are back in time.”
This Gap is the source of all my thoughts – and the source of all thought. It is a promised land where I can pause and a jungle where I seal deals. It is a space of pure awareness and pure potentiality. It is the source of all power and the experience of no-experience.
It is precious. It is divine. It is magic. So watch it closely when it is there, and look for it when it is not. I will. I promise.
Peace be the journey,
* Read Getting in the Gap by Wayne Dyer and The Power of Now by Eckart Tolle.